I understand what you are saying. I talked to my T last week (and then posted here) that she was pushing me to do things that I don't feel like doing. Some of the responses I got were not helpful and honestly made me feel worse because I already feel bad enough as it is. I thought she was mad at me because she felt I am being lazy.
I actually felt the same way that you do when I first starting seeing my T. It was a couple sessions for her to see how I really feel. The way I thought about my first sessions were this. I can go talk to someone and possibly try to get some help, and if I end up making a fool of myself, I don't ever have to talk with them again. I found it a lot easier for myself to open up. Also remember that they don't expect your life to be prefect, they already know there is a reason you're seeing them. If you feel like opening up is not possible, or if you have but don't feel like your getting any responses from it, tell him. While he may know a lot about therapy and how to help people, everyone is different. Giving them some guidance may not necessarily be a bad idea. Hope this helps. Hopefully you will have a break through soon!