At least the (serious) sui thoughts are gone for now. Now, and this has never at all been anywhere near the case before, I get the urge to SI every time I come across something sharp or otherwise dangerous. I'm like a mentally ill mockingbird- " look shiny! That random shard of glass on the ground looks sharp..."

I've resisted the urge most of the time it comes up, but I find myself.thinking about it nearly constantly. And I HAVE SI'd numerous times.over the past.few days and I can't seem.to just stop like I used to be able to.