LovesEcho,
I am so sorry you are going through this. I went through this years ago and it almost drove me mad.
I have had severe depression since I was 14 and when my husband started treating me the way your husband treats you, I couldn't take it. I wanted to end my life as I was struggling as it was.
He is BP and he was having a time of it and taking things out on me.
After about fifteen years of it, I was ready to call it quits. I don't know if it was because I was ready to leave him or what, but he started getting better and although, I still fight depression, we have actually had a good marriage since.
It is year 34 of marriage for us now and I hope the worst is past us.
The reason I am telling you all this, is to give you hope. There is hope that things will change. I am wishing this for you.
I know how being rejected can take every bit of self esteem you have. I hope he can change and you guys can start a new life together.
The most important thing is to take care of YOURSELF first!!
Wishing you all the best.
Please keep us posted as to how you are doing.
I care,
Linda