We call It my stubborn streak, and it's annoyingly a positive thing
I know so well the arguments, which are often out loud, I have to have with myself (or my depression) nearly everyday, "get up!","get dressed!" "get your backside in to work!"

Very confusing sometimes, knowing that the right thing to do, no matter how hard it is, is to not let myself win. Which is hard because I don't like losing arguments even when they are against myself