Well ...with ed's do we ever feel really ready? I tjink most of us wait for that but it often doesn't come. We often waffle on that point.

Sometimes you just have to leap. I can tell you that after struggeling with anorexia for most of my life and then finally getting healthy, I have done unrepairable damage to my body. You don't want to deal with that.

The fear of getting better, is a very common fear in ed. I mean yoy know this, rely on this, and use this for so long... how do you live without it. But you have to realize that is a similar statement an addict would make. It's not sound. How could I not live with something that is essentiallly killing me? Asked myself that many times without realizing what a strange idea that was.

But I understand and you are far far from alone in this thinking.

I tried many things, didn't make to much improvement until I started yoga. I didn't feel ready, was not considering getting better right then either. Something weird happened tho and I started to notice and appreciate my bodies strength and form.. it became beautiful and something to nourish. Yoga is used for treatmemt with high success in ed's, I didn't know that at the time. So there is one option. Many ed treatment centers use yoga in their treatment.

The part about not being sure if you want to get well, seems you cannot wait on that. Your dr has no readon to not believe you or take you seriously, hopefully you have a good dr. They should and likely do realize that ed's fit not stereotypical image. I mean you don't have to be emancepated to be malnourished, overweight people can also be malnourished. I cannot tell by looking at someone wether they purge etc. We have been fed an image of what ed looks like, and that is such a problem.

The doubt of having a problem, well for me that was fear based denial. I mean if I don't admit or acknowlege it, I don't have to work with it. There is sometimes such a sense of pay off with some ed's, sometimes it feels like a realtionship.... but that is somethimg to overcome, it's an abusive relationship at best.