I am in the same place of denying I have an ED one minute and knowing I have a problem the next. It is not easy to admit to having an ED. My T and I talked about that yesterday. I am not anorexic-yet; but I am close which scares me. Even harder is I still want to lose weight. After reading your story, I was wondering if you have a therapist to talk about it with? I am with you that it is much easier to talk and open up on this forum but I have found it very helpful to have an actual person to talk to also who won't judge me and whom I can trust. I hope you will consider finding a therapist. My T doesn't specialize in treating ED's but knows enough about them that I feel she can help me.

You are definitely not alone.