I'm so sleepy. All the time. It doesn't matter if I sleep under (deprivation) or over (excess) or just the proper amount ... I'm always tired. Never physical, always in my head.

I just want to be able to sleep properly and not go through my whole day feeling like a zombie. That's how I was over the holiday, barely able to stay awake for 6 hours at a time without sleeping.

I need to be able to feel something anything more than I am right now. I don't know if my mood is artificially inflated when I'm around my friends or not but I can't stand being like this.

What's the point.

I'm so sick of stresses and stressing myself out and my body hating me and hating myself and being self-destructive or feeling the need to be. I just want to feel better.

You'd think I was asking for a miracle.

Sorry I'm just being mopey. Sorry I'm being so pessimistic. Sorry I'm wasting everyone's time ...

I'm sorry that I'm me.