i'm sure you are not the first person to these issues and if you are honest with your doc I am sure you both can come up with some plan .or i'm sure you will be able to find some doc who will give you whatever drug you like it really isn't all that complicated.it seems all you need is drugs to fix the issues so im sure there are always some docs who are pretty much pharmacies and have no real interest in helping you emotionally or otherwise that might serve your purpose. just keep looking