had a tough session with T and everything went wrong. we didn't connect and she didn't hear how bad i felt inside. she jsut told me about someone that was blinded in one eye by boiling water and that i'm not maimed or dead and that i need to remember that the past is past. she didn't hear that i know that but the inside pain and the memories around holidays was more than i could handle.
grounding wasn't working---i am just hurting really bad inside.

i tried to be good, i tried to hang on. i tried to think of something else---i c*t and even tho i feel a bit better----spent the day with a friend and with H, now it is quiet and feelings are starting to stir again.

jsut need some friends right now...
naomi