i feel sorry for your loss, such a shame, i will pray for you and your friend. My sister committed suicide in 1987 at age 16 i know the feelings you are having, you will grieve first but then after while it will get better, it is not your fault, and i don't believe you will do the same thing either. I used to wonder if i would too as i'm schitzofrenic, but those thoughts have left for now at least.