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Originally Posted by Asiablue
I often have a complete mind blank as to why i am in therapy. I think to myself "WTF are you playing at, your childhood was normal, it's just you who isn't, your family has done nothing wrong, stop over-dramatising and get on with life like everyone else. You're making a big deal out of nothing, you're making things sound worse than they were, you are remembering wrong etc etc etc "
I know my family would be appalled at how i've reacted to my childhood, about what i've told my therapists.
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Yep, me too. I have to remind myself that this is their version of things - their self-serving, distorted version - and I get to have a story, too. As do you.
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Originally Posted by tooski
II come in for an appt, and there he is. It's nice, but it puzzles me. I'm just starting to realize that it's not supposed to be that way. No one was ever there for me, and that's what I expect. And the fact that he IS ... well, it's just strange and I'm very suspicious of it.
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Me too. It feels fake. I feel like I'm just waiting until he gets sick and tired of me and stops faking it. And I know that's all me, but I still feel it...
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Originally Posted by tooski
Another thought is that often when someone compliments me, I feel pressured. Or like I'm fooling them. I haven't figured this out yet, but when I read your post I know if someone said I was doing great at therapy I would feel pressure. IDK.....
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I have this too. On this occasion I don't think it's the issue, but I just wanted to say I can relate to what you've written here.
Thanks everyone! As ever, it took bouncing it around on here to help me figure it out, so thank you
