I tend to not binge, but I do purge. My husband knows about this and says it is a waste of food. Well, I KNOW that. I don't do it on purpose. But this compounds the horrible guilt I feel about doing it and has made me extremely self destructive in other ways. I hate this disorder and what I do for it. It logically seems like I can control it , but I can't seem to in reality. I so wish I would just have the courage to end it all. To not be a burden to anyone ever again.