Hi, Rhapsody,

How did you get from making and prioritizing the lists to actually moving? I have lots of lists and my most recent updated today has my 2 most important tasks in red and bold. But I have not devoted 5 minutes to either. Sometimes it is really hard for me to get outside and feed my animals who I adore. I very seldom feed my kid (but he can feed himself at 17 mostly).

But I am ahead of where I was 4-6 years ago when I slept 12-14 hours/day to avoid the pain. I am awake more now although I accomplish little and I have come to terms with my grief and am at peace with who I am and happy to wake up every morning. There was a time when I thought I wouldn't.

A have a general apathy that extends throughout my whole life - visiting friends, organizing (I hate the word cleaning, paying bills, reading mail (I lost significant $$ twice because I don't read most of my mail), helping my child in school. Actually the only things I do do is shop on-line, troll the www, and play with my plastic ponies.

I have taken xanax for a few years but only take 1-2 mg/day now to help me sleep so I don't know...