((((((((((mel44))))))))))))

I'm so sorry to hear that things are so difficult for you and your family right now ... but just know that what you're going through yourself personally, really is separate from that of your mother, and you shouldn't feel guilty about feeling the way you do, on account of her. I understand you love your mom and dont dont want to add to her problems, but you are also very important, and i'm sure she wouldn't want to see you worrying about her. I undestand where you are coming from though, and you must be a very loving and caring person to be feeling all of this for your mom.

I hope that things work out