I'm so relieved that someone else is in this uncomfortable place with me, TinyRabbit. I've recently realized (T knew it all along, I guess) that I am still scared to trust him, literally scared OF him, that he is going to do something to me. Even when he's incredibly compassionate and accepting, there is a piece of me thinking, "What are you up to? I am not going to get tricked by you, T!"

He says he's okay with it. I feel terrible about it.