Hi all. I was diagnosed bipolar ii a month or so ago, because after a year of being on effexor it was apparent that it was making me much, much worse.

I'm currently in, what I believe to be, a mixed state. I feel like my brain has no lubrication, every thought hurts, nothing is worth doing, yet I'm spinning a mile a minute and going nowhere. I've never been in such mental agony, and it's lasted what seems to be forever (even though I'm sure it's only been about a month or so).

I know that a good portion of this is effexor withdrawal (I'm at 75 down from 250, I've been weaning for about 4 months). I also know that not being on the correct medication is contributing. But I just feel like I'm doing everything.. meditating, eating well, vitamins, exercising, CBT, journaling... and I am in such complete agony all the time.

My OBGYN just put me on hormonal birth control, in the hopes that leveling out my PBS would at least alleviate some anguish, I meet with my pdoc on Tuesday to hopefully get put on a mood stabilizer, and I meet with my tdoc every monday.

In the meantime I just feel like I'm drowning. Any sort of love would be appreciated, because I just don't know what to do. It gets better, right?