Well, I left T three weeks ago for our respective vacations and my "assignment" was to think about what direction I wanted things to take when we get back. How I thought things were going, whether or not I was willing to open up more and all that stuff. I did think about it a lot and wrote down my feelings and ideas about it and I have a pretty clear idea of how I want things to go. And I do want things to keep going.

So, what's the problem? Well, he usually doesn't give me assignments. It's only happened a couple of times - and, although, I did the assignments thoughtfully, they never came up and were never discussed. He never asked about them, I never mentioned them. So, I'm wondering if this is even going to come up when I go back next week. And, if I even want it to come up. Part of me thinks it would start a really good discussion and part of me just wants to sit there and not get too deep.

I know I could get into it if he pulled me in, but I don't think that's going to happen, and I'm no good at bringing it up because I'd just assume sit there as initiate conversation. I really and truly do want to progress with this therapy thing I just think I need someone who's going to kick me in the rear to do it or at least attempt to draw me out a little.

I've spent the last three weeks thinking about how much I can't wait to get back and say all these things I thought about. But now that the big day is approaching, I sense that I'm going to be too quiet and closed off. Any suggestions? Anyone know where to get truth serum? I've often thought some of that or a shot of whiskey would make my sessions much more productive. I guess I'm just going to have to grow some balls before next week to go along with all the spines that are being grown around here (no offense or vulgarity intended).

How do you all start off after a break?