'o.O While I appreciate the bravado, dude, ... this isn't a dating site. I know how you feel, though, ... or at least, I relate, somewhat, ... I do kinda feel like I need a woman who can help me be a better person, and help me "shine", as it were. Try a less direct approach - get to know a woman, without the neon sign. To tell you the truth, ptangptang I've waited too long for my female equivalent of a knight in shining armor, and I guess I sorta gave up hope, a bit, ... the last two times I put that sorta hope into a relationship/woman, I ended up with a f**kton more problems than I started with; some things a man needs to do solo, a lesson I've learned the hard way, which is why I'm trying to get some independence, sorting my health out, doing what little I can to make myself a better person, and if a woman should wanna hitch along for the ride, ... then GIGGETY GIGGETY, HOP ALONG, CHOOCHOO! Maybe the house is part of the step you need to take, to move forward, ... just a thought. If you are physically unable, then consider getting some professional help. Best of luck.