I'm constantly alone or working. I love my alone time, but I hate not relaxing or seeing my friends. I'm too busy to change this right now.

I'm happier being single than most people are. But I am human and it does get to me sometimes. Everyone around me, save for two other INFJ bi polar people that I know, are in relationships. Everything I've had since I've moved to a college town has ended with someone choosing some one else over me, even though they were really into me. I'm feeling really bothered by this.

I love my friends, but I have few people that I can be completely me around. I treasure these people, but I'm in college and will not meet as many people as often ever again.

I feel like I'm aging and losing my looks. I feel like no one will like me if I do.

I'm moving to the Middle East after graduation. I feel like though its my dream, that I will be very lonely.

I don't know why its so much harder for me to be liked and be happy than it is for others. I'm pretty, nice, smart, caring, understanding, interested in lots of things, passionate, and an artist. I am everything that a desirable person should be, so what's the deal.

I'm begining to despise myself again. I feel like I'm avoiding people just to avoid being rejected, even though most people seem to like me in a non romantic since.

What's a girl to do? I feel 40 Am I that hard to love?