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Old Oct 16, 2013, 09:58 PM
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Well It's me again. Still having hubby issues. I have a question and need input.

My H has suggested we turn the computer off, the kids kindles off, the I pods off and anything that relates to the internet off for a month. After 30 days it is all free game again. I have a problem with this. The computer is my only outlet to the real world. I need Psych Central. I need a different forum that I use for survivors of rape. I need communication with others via e mail. He can't take that away. He just can't. It makes me feel very juvenile that I even hear myself say "No he can't". We have discussed this an it the discussion got heated very quickly. He wants it off, I do not. I told him I would compromise. How about I turn it off at 5:00 every day and don't get on the computer at night after he has gone to bed. I don't use the computer while he is outside doing stuff for work the next day. I would not like to compromise even that much. But I am willing to suck it up and do that if it would make H feel better about things.

H wants it completely off for a month. He is not here during the day time hours. So if I am on the computer here and there what difference does it make to him. He isn't even here. His way of handling a no I don't think so answer out of me was to make fun of me and pull a "what you not strong enough to go with out the computer for a month."

For anyone who doesn't know what is going on, my H and I have been struggling a lot. He has control issues he has been working on relinquishing.
He absolutely hates the computer. He hates that I talk to people on it. He hates that I do not talk to him instead. I would but I don't think he would like to or would be able to relate to rape or mental illness. He is jealous of the computer. I already try very hard to not be on it when he is here. I can understand how it makes him feel when i am on the computer and he wants to talk to me and can't because I am on here. But at night after he goes to sleep what harm is it, afternoons when he works late and is nt here what harm is it, and during the day especially , when he is not here it is of n harm. It is not like I am looking at porn or mingling with the opposite sex on the computer. I have never done anything to lead him to believe I am not trust worthy.

At this point in my mental health and my working on stuff in T, I just don't think I can forgo using the computer. Safe outlets is something I need badly.
Am I being unreasonable here.

ANY SUGGESTIONS ANYONE< ANYTHING WOULD BE APPRECIATED.
Am I so totally wrong, is my compromise unfair, opinions please.
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