I am sorry to hear that you are struggling so. What do you mean by "whats the point" ? And have you told your t this. It's all so complicated but our systems were created by us to protect us. Somewhere in you is the strength and the will to survive. This is true for all of us. At some point the chaos will calm and you will be back to feeling better. For me knowing this helps me to continue to work with my t and get on with living. I truly hope you feel better soon.