Since my last post, I think I experienced a hypomanic episode (first one, maybe?), I've re-adopted an addiction to cutting, and my mother knows that I'm once again in a bad place. Fun times had by all right!? I don't want to make a big wall-of-text post like I usually do though...

For now I'm posting because I'm wondering if anyone else can feel a really bad depressive episode about to happen? For most of the day I've been terrified... trying to distract myself from the inevitable, but for the most part unable to... I felt okay today, really. Except for that one gut-wrenching thought that I'm plowing towards a cliff. Things might have been okay, but I knew soon I'd go over... and here it is...