hey annie, nice to have you here :-)
I so know what you mean about transference issues...
i would never ever ever ever ever not in one million years say anything whatsoever to my t about my transference issues.
nope
not going to happen
nuh huh.
even though i know he knows all about them (academically)
even though i know he would be willing to talk about them (rationally)
still
nope
ain't gonna happen

sometimes impasse's can be reached because there is this thing... that one tries to avoid... kind of the elephant in the room situation. where what one really needs to do is to take a bit of a risk and reach out... so that your t gets the chance to respond well and so that your trust is recieved well and you feel that little bit closer and more connected to her.

i put on a happy face too. i remember i had this t who used to greet me with 'how are you?' in the waiting room. i used to say 'okay' and smile. one day she asked me why i had said that in the waiting room when i burst into tears once we got to her office. sheesh... i didn't think she really wanted to know, i thought she was just making a polite greeting and so i responded appropriately. i can't even say 'terrible' in the session really because the words 'how are you' are this social nicety... i have trouble with thinking that saying 'crap' can be appropriate.

i've said where i'm at with respect to talking about transference issues... but maybe you are in a different place? sounds like you have been thinking about taking a bit of a risk with that...

maybe what your t is trying to do is to stabilise you. to create a safe place for you. so that when you are ready... you can start talking about the hard stuff. maybe she is waiting for you to initiate it because she doesn't want to push you until you are ready.

if you could indicate that you are ready...

maybe...

she is just waiting for her cue.