I went to the psychologist yesterday and also discontinued my semester at uni.
The last time I saw him I had only just started drinking again, and was sad, but not like this.

He diagnosed me with clinical depression again.
He said I should consider a drug called lexapro for my depression and also another for my alcoholism.

I looked up lexapro and a lot of people complain about the withdrawal symptoms. I'm not an incredibly anxious person or anything and I'm usually able to cope with things.

The weird thing is, however, I don't really want to stop drinking; I enjoy it. I can't be bothered to get better emotionally either, all I really want to do is drink. It's just expensive. I also have ADHD, it's not really relevant for the conversation, I just haven't mentioned iy here I think.

I've taken lovan before and felt absolutely nothing, which I hated.
I know it will get better one day, and the whole point of that is to feel happy, not empty. I don't know. That's all I really have to say about that.

Anyone know anything about lexapro? And does anyone have any insight on not wanting to stop drinking? Is there some kind of unifying reason to stop or do I just have to wait and see?

Thanks

Jordan