I was lucky to get this job when my previous company got liquidated....then I fell into a depression.

Now I've realized how much I hate this place.

Everytime you take a day's sick leave you get such a lecture when you get back, the anxiety it causes to phone in sick is worse than the illness itself. I was hospitalized for two weeks when I got major depression and when I returned I was questioned by my boss why I didn't disclose my depression status. It felt like I was being discriminated against, and I had to beg to keep my job. My boss hasn't once asked me how I feel, am I doing ok or am I coping. It's clear what happens to you here doesn't matter as long as it doesn't interfere with work.

I am so tired of having to fake feeling ok and getting up everyday NO MATTER HOW CRAPPY I FEEL. I have to put on this fake smile and pretend I'm ok because I know I am being tested.

I wish I could find something better, I am so tired of being treated like a number.