I am a student, 25. I am not an alcoholic. Drink once a week with the same group of friends. This friend of mine, me and her have had drinks together alone in past too. We were drinking with a bunch of 7-8 friends. I didn't even drink too much this time. Smoked a bit though. So I stay back at her place while other friends leave. I needed to discuss some issue with her. After that I remember only few flashes. Don't know how it started but remember myself on top of her. Some fondling too, while she asked me to stop. I don't recall how or when it stopped. After that I remember she came back with a common friend while I lay sleeping on her bed. Then I just left.

Next day I faced her. Just said that I did dishonourable act and left (hardly stayed a minute). Didn't know what else to do or say. I just can't live with myself like this. I did something which I wouldn't even dream of doing. Feel slight breathlessness at times. Just can't stop thinking about what I did. Don't even know how it happened. I accept full guilt of what I did, alcohol is not to blame here, I am. Just don't understand how I am capable of doing this. Don't even know why I am writing this here.