I'm here to tell you Bark, that it is the depression talking. Don't hate yourself for posting that. If it's cathartic to you, then so be it. We're not here to judge..

I wish I could take your suffering so you don't have to go through this. But no one can.. so we're all here to support each other. Hope you're okay Bark. Always here

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On another note, I survived through my new school's orientation.
but with a cost: I'm more unstable than before. For no good reason.

I don't know whether I could do this. I don't know whether I could make it through school with depression. I don't want to tell my new school about my condition. I don't want sympathy "marks." I don't want any of those. I just want to be treated like a normal schoolgoing person. But the previous time I attempted school and a major exam, I flunked. Badly. And parents didn't understand anything. That it was hard. That everyday I spend my time idling on my laptop, it is me.. running away from this darkness.
I'm scared. I'm scared to do this.. and fail my parents' expectations again.

.. and no, they won't ever understand that it was due to my illness.