If I were you, I would start looking for a different job. Maybe you could find one that didn't cause you so much anxiety. I do understand, though, my company is not a very compasionate one. And hate coming to work everyday. But I haven't been able to find another one. I do like you, I fake it, but I have to have the money, so there is no option. Hope you find a solution soon.
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