Hi Blueflower,
My disease is really out of control, too. I am sitting here thinking what I am going to go eat. It seems nothing is working. When I go to bed at night I am convinced the next day will be better and it never is. I was sure I had made a turnaround yesterday, but didn't. I must be gentle with myself, too. Today is a new beginning.
Let's keep in touch.
God's blessings to you always,
Angelsbreath