Sorry about the rant above (if you read it) I guess that is what it was. Has actually been sort of nice to feel anger towards the issue as I don't often feel much of anything. Calmed down as I got ready for bed.

It just seems so weird to me... Like I don't even know who I am... As in the core of me... I just keep putting one foot in front of the other.

Perhaps I'm deluding myself and the above outburst is just another expression of depression in the form of frustration.



Sorry for the incessant posting... Till recently all these expressions have been wrapped up in my head and I'm bursting them out onto this board like a kid a sweet shop for the very first time :s

Fml