Hello Yoda -- My situation has never reached the place where yours is, but I have experienced some downward slides that were very scarey.

If you live in the US, you live in a society that ignores its poorest, sickest, oldest and their needs. The infrasctructure we need isn't here.

Is there any possibility of getting church or community resources to help you? Sometimes church groups help people fix up homes. My school is having a big push right now to get us to do "service learning" projects with our students.

If not, please be as kind and patient as you can with yourself. This isn't your fault.