Henry, are you diagnosed with more than just bipolar? If so, or if you suspect so... there's possibly more at work than just the cyclothymia depression. Even if it's just a general low self-esteem.

I know how frustrating it is to keep trying with people and getting hurt - it happens to me too. But what sort of "moral" high ground are you standing on? I'm all for having high standards... but are yours maybe so high that no one can maintain that? Sometimes we set ourselves up to get hurt, because it's all we know and anything else is scary. I'm pro at self-sabotage. But your really might want to take a look at how much you are judging other people - and you seem to be judging them before you even get to know them.

Do you go to see a T? Because those issues can definitely be things to get help with in therapy.