I've recently had a feeling that i'm not able to tell if it's a positive or a negative feeling. or if anyone else ever feels the same.. right now i feel kinda stupid about it, because i dont know of anyone else that has felt this way...
I know it's not exactly scared... or lonely.. and its most definitely not seeking any kind of attention.. but i only know what it isn't.. and i wanna know what it is. and the reason. I mean i know the point of time when i started feeling it, but thats not a clear enough reason for me....

Yesterday i had a lot going on, and a lot of changes in my routine, and long story short, i ended up talking to the police and a state police lady with the big help from my friend. Afterwards we were going home, and i started trying to put words to the feeling that i had just started feeling, and it came to "i dont really want to be left alone right now" and i was wish i had one of the soft stuffed animals that i could make hug me right then.. it wasn't any wants/thoughts of harming myself either.