Suzy,
Hello, my friend.....my name is Susie!! I hear everything you are saying...my heart aches for you. I am so sorry that you were in so much pain that you overdosed...that is scarey. Are you getting help....I hope. And the fact that you don't talk about it, I'm so sorry. Do you have kids? That is one of the saddest things for me...I don't ....and it was by choice because I am bipolar, severe anxiety, ED etc...and felt it would be fair to have a child....now I wish so much that I had children
I am 57 and feel so physically unattactive to my boyfriend. Up until 2 yrs ago, I was thin for over 30 yrs....I hate being fat. I have nothing that fits. I am so used to being thin....this is a person I was in my early 20's. I lost 50# and kept most of it off for over 30 yrs. Back then I did it with Weight Watchers....I tried that last year...and after 4 wks. I had lost nothing!!! I am so discouraged. Like today, I ate fruitcake, and chocolate...when I had the best of intentions this am
I initially gained the weight when my husband and I were going through a divorce after 33 years of marriage...there still is so much unresolved....and won't ever get resolved except through working with my therapist.....I can never talk to him again. He has remarried and moved 1500 mi away. He never wants to talk to me again. I was the one that asked for the divorce. We both said that we would always love each other....just couldn't make it work....we had tried for years and years. It is all about emotions....and not wanting to feel the feelings.
I hope we keep in touch....I am saying a prayer for you right now.
God bless
Angelsbreath