Try not to play the waiting game. I think it's normal for us to play the waiting game. Try making your self go to the poetry readings, and any commitments you already have,even if it's to zone out there. If you have friends hang out with them one on one. When I took my culture difference class I realized that my morals were not higher than others just not in par with American culture. Once I was able to know that it was much easier to find people I mesh with better. You may want to write down your values and order them from most important to least so you know the scene you may mesh with the best and start there. Human error happens but you may need to give others more room for error. Yes, the people closest to you WIll hurt you, sometimes a lot but there is value in strengthening those relationship through resolving differences or acceptance.

A lot of what you wrote made me think your GAD acts up when you're depressed so keep that in mind. This board is a lot more active then most so you may get responses quicker here than most boards.