You have been diagnosed with many different things with which cope. I have biplar 1, mostly depressed. Like you I don't want to get out and don't want to go places that have a lot of people and I know they won't understand my illness, so I have to hide behind a mask of being normal. Fake smile and all.

I'm sorry you have been lied to so much. I know that that hurts. Think it is good that your T wants to work on you not judging people so soon. There are a lot of people out there are hiding behind masks, too. Me, too, because I think people will judge me if they know the real me.

I'm not sure when it gets better. I've been seen by psychiatrist for a long time and have gone to counseling, too. Would be in counseling but I can't afford it right now. I've been severly depressed for 9 months now I'm beginning to feel a little better after some med adjustments. I just try to enjoy the good days, because it might my last one for a while.

I really hope you get to feeling better soon.