This is just a suggestion - but if the therapist is helping you with self image/esteem/compassion - then perhaps this could be a time to practice that. Instead of all the "I stink" and so forth sorts of things you are writing on here, what if you tried instead to look at it differently and then focussed on not doing the thing rather than the beating up of yourself for having done it and almost, seemingly, dooming yourself to repetition. This is probably not easy, but the "I stink" think can come all too easy, and although it appears all tough and so forth, if it is a usual pattern, then it is more comfortable than focusing on the other parts. This is just my thought, it could be wrong.