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Old Oct 18, 2013, 01:08 PM
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Originally Posted by Seiya View Post
Does anyone else have this problem?

So far I have talked myself out of doing yoga (which helps me) and taking meds (which are also helping). I became much more angry, anxious, and stressed out when I stopped. I have started doing both again but I wonder what it was that made me decide to stop? Is there some part of me that wants me to be miserable?

Then there are other things, on a regular basis, that I talk myself out of doing, things that would help me. For example, finishing an online course, buying vitamin supplements that my doctor suggested, making time to meditate. I want to do them but I tell myself it is pointless, why bother, it will be a waste of my time. And I listen to that voice even though I know it is wrong.
This is SO familiar. I am taking my meds now, and have a plan that I hope will engage me in strength training (& yoga, which does help)----I don't know if there is a part that "wants to be miserable"; I think it is more a fear that "this too will fail in time", and a certain comfort/pull towards the known, even if that is unpleasant to say the least; I know, for me it also has to do with feeling undeserving of ...((this was pointed out to me by another long ago, and it took a long time to click; now that it has, memories return that make me say "No wonder I feel as if I do not deserve anything..." I did not read the other answers as I am getting ready for work so, apologies if repetitious . ((((hug)))
All we can do is "get back on the horse", over and again.
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