You asked a question that had also been haunting me for a while but with a little twist to it. You said there is a tiny part of you that doesn't want to get better. For me the majority part (like 99%) doesn't want to get better..... I just don't want to.

Ironically, not too long ago, my therapist and I devoted an entire session to discussing my version of your question. But, thanks to your bringing it up and to everyone who replied, I have been doing some hard thinking. Perhaps it's time for me to re-visit the matter with my therapist. Maybe next time, I'll listen with more of an open mind.

It's so much easier to just give in to depression (and anything else) than to fight it.