i can really relate to this. i'm an english major and i love reading. i don't think i've read anything this semester that i haven't enjoyed. but for classes, i have to do things within specific (and often ridiculous) time frames. there's a huge difference between reading a book for pleasure and savoring every word and rushing through it to make sure you have it prepared for discussion.

i don't really have advice because it's something i still struggle with. but i can definitely relate. for me, i have the (really rigid) understanding that the only way to live a successful and meaningful life is by getting a well-paying legitimate job and the only way to do that is by getting my degree. it's not fun. i've been told by numerous people-- therapists and my parents-- to slow down and take a break. i'm a perfectionist too so i'm not happy with a b or even a b+... it always has to be an a, but of course, that doesn't always happen and then i get depressed, blame myself, and my self-esteem takes a nose dive. but i've already taken a year off and i kind of want to "rip the band aid off" in hopes that i'll feel better once academia is behind me. sorry-- probably not super helpful but i can relate. i still believe i'll love reading again once the pressures of college are taken off. and i also try (sometimes, i need to work harder on this) to look for the positive. if i am assigned a book that i don't like, i try to tell myself that it'll make me a better writer because i'll know not to do x y and z... or little things like that. just looking for a faint silver lining in the situation.