I've started going to a camera club ( i'm a complete beginner) and 95% of the people there i would say are pretty profficient. The other night we had a 'flash and light' evening, ie things set up on tables and with lights off everyone had turns taking pictureswith diff lighting etc etc. Because i'm a beginner and feel a bit stupid anyway and because i get so self conscious ( even at 57) about being watched i didn't take any pictures. Still i have no problems talking to people and it was a night out so it was ok. That wasn't the thing.
I'm bi, not openly so only on here, but not bothered by it and if somebody said anything i would say yes i am. The guy who runs the club gave me a lift. We talk and he is very friendly. It's a friendly group. Two things he said set me thinking. 1) The lights were turned out and he said ' perhaps we should go in the toilets to carry on talking , but i wouldn't want to go in there with you'. 2) finding a chair to sit in a group he said to people ' i don't want to sit next to him' ( meaning me- What???). Both times were meant jokingly but ( to someone who has low self esteem anyway), made me think 'Why did he say that'. Other than that we get on fine. We talk about football, photography, whatever. I've never ever thought i come across as gay or effete' I want a full relationship with a woman but have certain sexual feelings for younger men. But do people think i come across as gay. Maybe i'm reading too much into it , maybe he was just joshing cos we support rival football teams and my team gave his team a good beating a few weeks ago. . Jeez, if i come across as gay i've got even less chance of finding a woman.
I thought i would post this on this thread too cos i'm interested in your responses.