you're right in saying there is no magic formula - i think that too many ppl make the mistake of expecting to be saved. I used to believe in magic formulas too . I used to fantasize about them as some righteous consequence of all my suffering, that there was some glorious world all on the other side of this where I would finally be freed of all my pain. And once this happened I would be all better and everything that happened before would be gone. Just like that.

The good news tho, is i still got better, it just didn't happen in the way i expected. That one glorious moment of enlightenment where the rain clouds opened up to let all the sunshine in and I suddenly understood never came. Yes, I got better, but it did not happen in the way I expected. I was anticipating a miracle cure. But there was no fairy who waved her magic wand and transformed my life, no knight in shining armour who came galloping in and saved me. Instead, like depression and anorexia, being well just gradually snuck up on me. What happened was for a number of years I kept on swimming back and forth between the river that separates sick and well, unable to decide which one to stick with. Eventually I made a conscious decision to get well and tried my best to stick with this decision. It was not easy – often I’d feel like I made one step forwards and two steps backwards. but i got there and u can too. hang in there, the ED has not defeated u, you're still here aren't you?