So, I've been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and Schizophrenia (still in predomal stage though), but have almost all of the traits of an ASD. My older brother has severe ASD and is violent/severe, which may have caused it to be overlooked. Abused and stressful childhood with family history of mental illness. Was hospitalized for 2 years bc of self harming behaviors (oding and anorexia too), but am wondering what my actual diagnosis could be since it was like a random guessing game there. There's a lot more symptoms, but what do you guys think? (misdiagnosis since I wasn't very open back then?)

Schizo and ASD symptoms
-shadows move at night when tired (started at young age)
-cannot understand audio/verbal much (especially audio books since I can only comprehend the words but not put them together)
-not fond of touch unless in certain mood (although I do like my back traced/light massage/hair messed with)
-don't understand what others are thinking and it frustrates me/makes me completely paranoid
-at early teen (and still) felt like stabbing people bc they were looking at me wrong and I thought they were thinking negative thoughts about me and it kept replaying in my mind
-pacing (alot) but stuck in my mind while doing it
-cant regulate or deal with emotions well
-have had a premonitions (not hallucination) and knew that people/animals died couple days before they did
-delusions
-fact vs fiction is blurred (cant read conspiracy theories/news anything or I become completely paranoid and take it to extremes)
-horror movies/violence runs through my mind over and over until I become homicidal but I'm doing it from fear/the thoughts and images keep playing and I want them to go away
-feels like my thoughts have been taken away or all of my thoughts are fake and created
-extremely jealous and convinced my bf is cheating on me somehow even though he always is with me
-world doesn't feel real sometimes as well as other people (matrix like and other people don't exist)
-not suicidal but feel impulses (my mind tells myself to do it over and over) to jump into traffic/off building/kill myself/other behaviors
-cant deal with change much and wish I could control the thoughts of others
-Thoughts that nobody likes me and secretly hate me
-I feel I need to sensor my thoughts bc people can read them or they get transmitted so others can listen in
-paranoia
-hate loud noises...they hurt (I can hear very well)
-if I'm not interested in a topic I don't answer much but if I'm interested I'll have a one sided convo all about the topic
-I get lost in my daydreams where I create a fantasy world, but I never see it outside of my mind and is in 3rd person
-Sorta anti-social since I don't know how to talk to people very well or know how social interaction is supposed to go and am socially awkward
-Don't understand most jokes/sarcasm/speech
-Can't make eye contact (don't understand what they are saying easily when not looking at hands and also I get paranoid and feel they can read me)
-Clumsy/bump into things/can't use fine motor skills much
-Get really obsessed about certain things for a while then switch to a next obsession
-connect and see a deeper meaning in everything than most people
-Morning ritual (have to get up-restroom-eat/drink before anything else)
-inappropriate use of facial gestures
-naive and have been taken advantage of multiple times since I don't know how to not be manipulated or get out of those situations (too socially awkward and want to be liked/not upset people)
-very honest and blunt and I think I'm being really nice but apparently it comes across differently
-sensitive to senses and am good at visualizing but not audio
-friends older or younger
-don't share things that are going on around me much with people and am a bit aloof/distant
-when I get tired I tend to cry and through a tantrum especially when told to go to sleep
-I get really focused when interested btu then have to get up an pace sometimes
-always moving (usually twirling or putting hair in mouth/fidgeting/hands in mouth)
-likes making things spin (car wheel vs playing with car)
-really good at science/social studies/reading/math/facts/building things
-no close friends or really any( bc I moved and don't leave the house)
-can't talk to people unless comfortable with them or specific environments
-get really hyper late at night and want to roughhouse
-abused my cat (shook it in a box over and over) bc I didn't know I was hurting it and didn't feel much empathy until after 10
-narrow interests
BPD symptoms
-identity issues
-self harm
-can't stand being alone
-idealize then despise people once they disappoint me
-disassociation and feelings of empitness/boredom
-intense mood swings but triggered by events/thoughts
-jealousy and possessiveness with really bad fear of abandonment