I can't think of anything else. I have nothing in my life. The only thing left to me is the choice of whether to end it or not. I feel like I've been watching a film on cassette tape. The film was crap, the credits have rolled and now I'm just staring at screen filled with static. I know the tape will end on it's own, but why wait? Why watch the static when I can just push the stop button and stop wasting my time.

I have no job, no friends, no purpose. My partner betrayed me and threw my life away for her own gain. All I've ever wanted was a family and a purpose. But I've been denied my dreams.

Everyone's got to die at some point. If I do this I can choose the way. I'm scared though. I've never had to do something that takes so much courage.