Hi there,
I wish that you had someone to be with you while you take the first dose...try breaking it into bits and take a bit of it to see how you respond.
this is a very safe way to try them.
STart taking it on a friday or when ever you may not have to go to work if you do that...try it over the weekend to give yourslef some time to see how your body reacts.
You may not need a large dose...
If you really want your life back then you do need to do something different.
No one can take this step but you.
I wish you well.
((((HUGS))))
bizi