I think I'm finally over being sick, but I am starting to feel down again. I actually had a good 2 months of feeling better. I'm not sure what is wrong. Trying to find the motivation to call my friend, do chores and all that but it's eluding me at the moment. Suicidal ideation is back. I hate this. And to make things worse, I saw on facebook that my former best friend is getting married on the 26th. I knew she was engaged (which I also found out about on fb) but I didn't know when it was. I feel like crap.