I'm feeling the same kind of thing, and it is scary for me as well. I've spent my life trying to be strong, and now I'm feeling more and more vulnerable.

The other day I was waking up and had the urge to start crying so that someone would come and pick me up. I haven't felt that probably since I was a toddler.

Becoming more aware of other parts is progress, but sometimes this kind of progress is scary.
xo
IJ