I had a session with my counselor, which did not end well for me. I have been getting very triggered during the last couple sessions and am trying to figure out why.

My 12/13 year old was very triggered, and by the time I had gotten home she had almost taken over. She has quite the vulgar vocabulary, and it is even harder because I do not like to swear.

I sat down to write out what was bothering me and she wrote a letter to my counselor, full of accusations and swearing. For 30 minutes I felt like I was being possessed, almsot. I was writing, but it was her behind it, and I felt completely out of control. Although I know thats not true because I was able to stop her from writing out a couple words that I was not okay with.

I hate feeling like the others are so strong they just take over when upset. How can I feel safe when I am afraid of what certain parts will do/say while they are upset?

I know many people will say that this is progress because I was able to channel what was being felt/experienced by my parts into writing it out, but I can help feeling like I am 'going crazy'. Since being diagnosed, and finding out about my parts, I have felt much less crazy, and more strong/capable having developed extreme coping skills as a child. Now, the crazy feeling is coming back. And it is really scaring me!