Well I've been calling several Ts, meeting one next week two, but my initial phone-consultation impressions aren't very good

Ugh I am so confused!!!

Been feeling great yesterday after making myself eat a lot, felt great this morning too, was about to start on some projects but I ate breakfast and... my motivation was gone just felt miserable and tired This happesn every time I have breakfast, that's why I've grown to fear eating in the morning it destroys my productivity for hours...

After like an hour I ended up going on a massive binge couldn't stop eating felt so bad.

But now I feel the typical low/food coma that occurs in my pattern but... I am actually also alert and motivated to work!!! It seems like all those different feelings I always assumed going together are all separated and I've been feeling such unexpected combinations the past few days!

SO CONFUSED!!!

But I guess the important thing is, whatever i am eating, I am eating way more of it, and that alone will help. Even terribly unhealthy food is better for me than no food at all.