Isn't it awful to have a addiction whether mental or physical ! The feeling of waking up and needing something just to get out of the bed. Maybe something to help you just to make it through one more day, or maybe just something to help you relax after your day. Whatever the addiction its just so awful to want something or need something so bad. You usaully end up doing something illegal to feed your addiction. Sometimes just your addiction itself is illegal. Sometimes you stoop lower than low to feed your addiction. Then all the other problems addiction causes. You lose either friends or family, sometimes your home sometimes your freedom. Most of the time you just dont care as long as you can find your high. Ive found somekind of escape the feeling of reality all my life. Im a addict plain and simple. I dont enjoy being one. I dont want to be one. Maybe its in my DNA or maybe its from a mental condition maybe because of my childhood. I think its just because I want to feel good and not bad and I cant find that feeling anywere else. I spend money I dont have to feed my addiction,I hurt loved ones and let them down. Im really ashamed of myself. People will tell you to get help. If it was just that simple I would put a band aid on it. Ive overcome alcoholism benzo addiction and dabbled with a lot more. Now I'm a prescription pain med addict! Life sure is a hard road for some of us but the big wheel keeps on turning ! Maybe tomorrow will be a better day ! Just Saying !